"We once had a major decision to make. When our prayers left us uncertain, I went to see Elder Harold B. Lee. He counseled us to proceed. Sensing that I was still very unsettled, he said, 'The problem with you is you want to see the end from the beginning.' Then he quoted this verse from the Book of Mormon, 'Dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith' (Ether 12:6).
"He added, 'You must learn to walk a few steps ahead into the darkness, and then the light will turn on and go before you.' That was a life-changing experience from one verse in the Book of Mormon." ~Boyd K. Packer~
Isn't that the way of life...learning to walk a few steps ahead into the darkness and then the light will go before you? I think that this is an easier concept for me with smaller things. We have never experienced anything in our almost 24 years married that is the magnitude of cancer. I need to learn that this principle applies to the big things too, not just the smaller things. I need to learn to keep taking a few steps into the darkness and to dispute not because I see not.
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Facing an uncertain future is certainly something that scares me as well. I don't like NOT seeing the end from the begining. We also are now facing a huge unknown now, and while it is a very good thing that is happening and not something tragic like cancer, it is still requiring us, and especially my husband, to take those few blind steps. He doesn't like that too much. Thanks for sharing that Loretta! You and yours are in my prayers!
Taking those first few steps are so scary! It takes more faith at times than I knew I had, but each time I step forward in the darkness, the light does come...so my trust is being built up each time! Everyone always says to us "move forward in faith"...surely easier said than done sometimes. I think a better thought might be "don't fear the darkness in your steps ahead, have faith in the light that will follow"
Loretta, you don't know me. Your sister told me about your blog. I also have cancer and completely understand your blog about an uncertain future. I wonder, if we knew the end...would we take the steps. I really just wanted to tell you that I think the real story you are writing is between the lines, things unsaid about the unconditional love and understanding between you and Tim. It is beautiful and inspirational. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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