Saturday, February 14, 2009

I Am A Waiter.....

Each day we pass through these halls of the cancer center on our way to radiation. Each day we go to the elevator and hit the down arrow and wait for the elevator. That elevator takes us to the basement of the cancer center where we go through the underground halls to the place where we check in and wait. This is where I see "the waiters". That is what I call those of us that come each day and wait. We wait for our loved ones to be called back to undergo their radiation. Some wait longer than others but we all wait.

I've never been a fan of waiting yet cancer is all about waiting. Waiting for the day of appointments to come around, waiting for the doctors once you are there, waiting for scans, waiting for test results, waiting for radiation 5 days out of every week, waiting for the next chemo treatment, waiting to see if the side effects they warn about may come, waiting to finally get through your treatment time, waiting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Each day I see the waiters. Each day I am one of them.

It occurred to me the other day that our waiting won't end. When the waiting is over for Tim's radiation and chemo appointments there is always be more waiting to be done with all the follow up that is to come, waiting to see if the cancer has been stopped in its tracks, waiting to hear the word "remission". I have been afraid that our days of being a waiter have only just begun.

But then I read the scriptures and concluded that maybe being a waiter isn't so bad....

Psalm 130:5-6 "I wait for the Lord, my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope.
My soul waiteth for the Lord more than they that watch for the morning; I say, more than they that watch for the morning."

Proverbs 20:22 "...but wait upon the Lord, and he will save thee."


Patty said...

Maybe a little more nerve wracking, this waiting, but not at all unlike being the family chauffer and waiting to pick kids up, right?

Lorie said...

I hope that the Lord blesses you with the ability to find peace while waiting and with a great outcome! Remission.

Courtney said...

Hi!!! I am very very very very very very sorry for what you guys are going through!!!!! That has to be very hard! And I am NOT a fan of waiting... even though I have to do it a lot with my appointments... me and my mom always play little games.... but I don't really think that would work for you guys... :) I hope that everything ends up okay!!!


p.s. i am almost positive that those doors, in the background of the picuture, lead into my mom's office. :)