Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! We all laughed so hard over seeing that note taped to the cat! We went upstairs to see him (and give him his computer, of course!) and we asked how he did that. He had all the supplies he needed -- pen and paper (to write notes with), tape (he uses for his feeding tube) and the cat, who likes to hang out with Tim when he is not feeling well. He explained (typing on his computer) that he rolled his IV pole as far out the door as he could then he stretched as far as his feeding tube would let him down that upstairs hall then he "lovingly tossed the cat down the stairs"!!! We all did get quite a laugh out of Tim's "cat mail'!! :)
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
When I offered to come down to Kentucky to help out, I really wasn't sure what I could do except provide some comic relief. On the long bus trip down I played over and over in my mind what the situation might be and how I might possibly be adding to an already maxed out work load for Loretta or pushing in on a very personal thing for Tim. I did NOT want to do that. I felt that the great distance between Loretta & Tim from family had to be very difficult for them and that they needed family.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Among the many treasures in the garage we found a pirate wig that never made its way back to the Halloween box so we decided to dress up mesh man in the can! Go ahead and say it, we're sick -- we know it! :)
When Cretta left, things seemed to be going well and Tim was able to get more sleep (something he has had so little of for weeks now). This past Sunday he felt dizzy all day and by evening he was throwing up. I stopped all meds and his tube feeding and just did a very slow water drip all night so he wouldn't get dehydrated. He didn't get sick all night but as soon as he began to move in the morning it started all over again. The doctor wanted to see him and do an MRI of his brain because they fear with the dizziness and throwing up that perhaps the cancer had spread. I was more than a little freaked out by them saying that to me on the phone. Some tense waiting time and an MRI later they say the MRI looks good but they don't know what is causing his latest symptoms. We spent all of yesterday in hematologist's office where they were giving Tim lots of fluids, potassium and Zofran for the nausea. We came home with yet more prescriptions to fill and more questions than answers about what Tim is experiencing. Each day we hope to see progress that tells us he is better than the day before -- kind of like a taste of spring that comes with warmer days. You know spring must come but sometimes it takes its sweet time and teasing you each day. By my calendar spring arrived last week. Now I am just waiting for Tim to arrive.
*Tim is my proof reader for my blog. Since he is not up to "proofing" for me I cannot be held responsible for any grammatical errors or anything of the like!!!
Friday, March 13, 2009
After seeing Jordan we make our way one last time into the Whitney-Hendrickson building and take the 3 mile hike that begins with the elevator taking us to the basement.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Wow...me blogging....who knew? At the encouraging of my good friend of many years, Patty, I decided to give this a try! Coming up with a name proved to be most difficult. It occurred to me that I lead a very boring life when I can't even come up with a catchy name for my blog. My first thought for a name was "I Got Nothin' " but wouldn't you know it, it was taken. Apparently others have nothin' too....how comforting....I think. Then I tried to fill in my interests, favorite movies, favorite music, and whatever else. Again I struggled to even remember what I thought were my interests or come up with a movie title. I concluded that I live a little life....thus the name Loretta's Little Life. :) Maybe this blog will inspire me to make my life bigger than it feels right now....what do you think?
Interesting..... The start of my blog was not all that long ago...September 2008...but it feels like much longer ago! Little did I know that 6 months later my whole "little" life would change in a rather big way. My life has indeed gotten bigger -- no thanks to my blog but thanks to cancer. Cancer -- the brush with extinction, the expanding soul, the shoring up of faith, the pulling of courage to the front line and anchoring our hearts to what is most important in life.
Then I re-read the "About Me" section just under my picture on my blog....
"I am Loretta..wife to Tim and mom to 6 great kids. Tim (the younger), Andrew, Jordan, Jacob, Abigail and Annah and mother-in-law to Lisa. Tim and I have been married for 23 years and have lived in central Kentucky for 13 years now. I am grateful for my life, all I have come through, all I am going through and all that is yet to come because I believe that "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
Friday, March 6, 2009
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
So what do you think either one of these people had to say when they came out and saw this????
Now I'm just guessing here but I'm thinking that the red car parked second since if they had parked first the driver of the tan vehicle would have never been able to get OUT of their car! AMAZING!
This is just one of the many things that ratcheted up my impatience today -- and it's not even MY car! Although I will say that it instantly threw me back to when I was pregnant (who even knows which time?) and someone parked next to my driver's side like that!!! Okay, I will admit that I took the time to leave a note on their car when it happened to me. I described in detail for them what it was like to be a pregnant woman crawling over the passengers seat to wedge myself behind the steering wheel of my car!
Another chuckle, compliments of the cancer hospital...... :)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
I hung up the phone and bawled. You can't imagine the blessing this was to us in so many ways. The obvious is the hassle it was going to be to go to the court house to take care of this but, as Paul Harvey would say, "the rest of the story"...financially, what a blessing.
I think there are many angels in waiting hanging around the world. I happened upon one today.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Little did Tim know that he DID have some "chuckles" in him.... he's full of surprises....
Today we had a follow up appointment (from when his lymph nodes were taken out) with the Fabulous Dr. O. The appointments with him make me long to have HIM as Tim's doctor through this whole ordeal. But we are down to 8 more dates with the rad machine before treatment is called complete and then we want to have the Fabulous Dr. O overseeing Tim. :)
Dr. O asked some questions about the peg (a.k.a. feeding tube) that Tim had put in. Then the following dialog took place:
Dr. O: "Can I see your peg?"
Tim: (hesitantly) "Well....okay, we're friends."
Dr. O: BWHAHAHA!
Dr. O: "Well, that IS a handsome peg!"
Tim: "I've had a lot of people tell me that!" :)
I don't know about you but I had a good chuckle over that conversation!!! :)
Monday, March 2, 2009
Today he saw the doctor after radiation and it was a good thing. Dr. K put him on several medications for things that are being a problem. Along with that his skin, particularly on the left side where the strongest radiation is delivered, is blistered and so red and irritated. Day after day his skin continues to be burned. I can only see the outside -- I cannot imagine what it would look like in his throat. Even water going down burns him now.
As the appointment was wrapping up Tim said to the doctor, "Are you thinking about backing out yet? 'Cuz I am!" To that Dr. K said, "We cannot stop. The radiation is like waking a sleeping tiger. You HAVE to make sure the cage is strong enough."
All day I have thought what if the "cage" isn't strong enough? What if the tiger has been awakened but can't be contained? That fear lies within me. It seems that we can never be really sure that we've made the cage strong enough. How do you ever know? I don't think you do and that is the relentless uncertainty that cancer introduces into your life.