Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Have You Seen My Life?

Annah woke up last night having a bad dream and whimpered for about 30 minutes after coming into our room to wake me up asking me "Where is the little cup?" and she tried to describe it to me...she was talking in her sleep. Then she asked me as if she was wide awake, "Have you seen my life?" I had to smile. I've been thinking the same thing lately...Have you seen my life?

On that same note my friend Julie tells me that she thinks I should rename my blog to What the @#%#@% Happened to Loretta’s Little Life???

BWHAHAHAHA! Yeah, I'm thinking she's right! Her suggestion got me thinking back to my very first post on my blog back in September 2008....this is it:

Who Knew?
Wow...me blogging....who knew? At the encouraging of my good friend of many years, Patty, I decided to give this a try! Coming up with a name proved to be most difficult. It occurred to me that I lead a very boring life when I can't even come up with a catchy name for my blog. My first thought for a name was "I Got Nothin' " but wouldn't you know it, it was taken. Apparently others have nothin' too....how comforting....I think. Then I tried to fill in my interests, favorite movies, favorite music, and whatever else. Again I struggled to even remember what I thought were my interests or come up with a movie title. I concluded that I live a little life....thus the name Loretta's Little Life. :) Maybe this blog will inspire me to make my life bigger than it feels right now....what do you think?

Interesting..... The start of my blog was not all that long ago...September 2008...but it feels like much longer ago! Little did I know that 6 months later my whole "little" life would change in a rather big way. My life has indeed gotten bigger -- no thanks to my blog but thanks to cancer. Cancer -- the brush with extinction, the expanding soul, the shoring up of faith, the pulling of courage to the front line and anchoring our hearts to what is most important in life.

Then I re-read the "About Me" section just under my picture on my blog....
"I am Loretta..wife to Tim and mom to 6 great kids. Tim (the younger), Andrew, Jordan, Jacob, Abigail and Annah and mother-in-law to Lisa. Tim and I have been married for 23 years and have lived in central Kentucky for 13 years now. I am grateful for my life, all I have come through, all I am going through and all that is yet to come because I believe that "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

Wow. I have loved that quote from the first time I heard it....what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I would be the first to say that I never expected Tim and I would meet something the likes of cancer in our walk through life; nevertheless, here we are. I think it's things like this-- the reality of life -- that make you look inside and see what you're made of. I hope I am made of the right stuff. When all is said and done and the stretching of my heart and soul are complete, I want to be made of the right stuff. I know Tim is made of the right stuff. I want to be just like him when I grow up.


Dotti said...

Nice one! Your Mom was so happy to get the printouts from your blog so she can keep up with you, just printed out the newest one for her, but I was talking with her on the phone when I checked your blog and read it to her. She had her first oxygen therapy in the 'decompression' chamber, said her ears hurt from it, but it wasn't so bad the second time. Take care..

Natalie.Rob.Branson said...

Life's unexpected changes are hard. However, we're learning that it's through the hard changes that we grow the most, learn the most, and change ourselves the most...but I'm sure you already know that. You and Tim are beautiful people that we admire so much. I think it is a beautiful thing that your blog is real...it speaks about you. One day you and your family will cherish these writings, and I'm guessing you'll love the hard posts just as much as you'll love the "happy" posts. Sending lots of love your way.

Patty said...

Amazing what a difference a few months, or even days or hours, can make in our lives. Even amazing at how our lives can be sculpted into exactly what we need to learn to be!