Between June and August....

Tim has an appointment with his oncologist at the end of the month...well, he had an appointment.

They called to say they needed to "reschedule".

"Okay, we're flexible," I thought.

I'm thinking that it will be the following week or two.

Nope.

The secretary cheerfully says, "We want to reschedule his appointment for August 10th."

I don't know what she thought happened to me on the other end of the phone but I couldn't respond immediately.

I stammer, "August??? That's 6 weeks past the appointment he had!"

She assured me she knew and that it was okay.

OKAY?

My thoughts are running wild....

"Okay?? Lady, let your husband get cancer and see if YOU think it's "okay" to wait 6 weeks beyond his appointment!"

I tell her he has aspiration pneumonia...will that matter to her? What if the x-ray next week isn't showing his lungs have cleared? What are we supposed to do then?

She tells me that we can call if there is problem. I finally agree to the appointment change but ask her again for the office telephone number so I can write it on the calendar on August 10th so if there is a problem there is no hunting for the number. I am not happy about the change.

I call Tim to tell him about the change. He always takes things way better than I do and while he's surprised, he's not stressed about it. I can feel that I am going to cry when I'm talking to him, and I do. I tell him that I just want things to matter to people like it was THEM that had cancer.

I know, another one of those unrealistic expectations. I seem to have a lot of those these days.

I will have to work on that while we wait.....between June and August.

Lamentations 3:25

"The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him."